Today was interesting. I felt very anxious and was
worried that I am not who I need to be, or that I am not who I desperately want to
be for me and for others. I felt afraid and I felt distance growing inside me. I prayed and prayed, but
it seemed that the help I needed wasn't coming. As I kept going through
my day, I did start to feel a little better. But it was later when I really felt the answer I had been craving. There was a church activity planned
that I wasn't sure if I would have time to go to because of a work meeting, but
I decided to go and just leave a little early. I'm glad I did. There I felt a sweet feeling of
comfort, along with a renewal of perspective. Everything really will be
ok. I don't need to be afraid. Things will be wonderful.
God answered my prayers. He was actually listening and responding to my
prayers all day, but in ways that I didn't recognize or didn't want, or that just needed some time to develop. I
wanted immediate responses and assurances, but today He was setting things up for me so I
would really learn some valuable truths in ways that would make a true impact
on me. I thought He wasn't answering me; in actuality, He was, and more
than I realized: He was leading me to people and settings and ideas that would
help me find the relief I was looking for. He knew that, today, I needed to be taught in a certain way. He does know best.
I know that there are times when we must pray and stand up and keep on going without receiving a clear answer or feeling or response. But, I know that God does not ignore us. He is listening and answering. I have learned that God rarely changes our situations immediately; He changes our hearts and our perspectives. Situations may stay the same for a while, but if we can see things clearly, or see them as He sees them, we can be filled with hope that everything will be ok.
I know that there are times when we must pray and stand up and keep on going without receiving a clear answer or feeling or response. But, I know that God does not ignore us. He is listening and answering. I have learned that God rarely changes our situations immediately; He changes our hearts and our perspectives. Situations may stay the same for a while, but if we can see things clearly, or see them as He sees them, we can be filled with hope that everything will be ok.
This is what true faith is.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great post, Eric. It happens to be very applicable to me right now. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteThings will be wonderful. In a very unique way. Unique to you. You are in the exact right place and I love reading about your journey.
ReplyDeleteMuch love,
Bekah~
It's reassuring to read that I'm not the only one who gets such feelings, and to read your experiences.
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